(Because I was troubled by what other brothers (members) said and did, I had a hard time for quite a long while. I was so troubled that I could not receive deep revelations either. In the end, because of my lack of love for brothers, my love for the Lord also came to have a problem. So I repented for a period of time. After reading the SM, entitled “Tidy and clean up,” I prayed deeply and looked into every corner of my heart. Then I realized that before I could blame other people my heart that thought the way it did was really bad. As I admitted it and repented of it, I felt I became clean as if something filthy went out of my heart. I began feeling fond of people too.)
Repentance is a gift that I give. Since you could meet with me again because your heart finally became peaceful, repentance is truly a gift from me. [But] it is a yoke and blindfolding of Satan that one entertains an evil thought seeing evil things, yet does not know it to be sinful. On the other hand, a heart that realizes evil when seeing evil things and earnestly pleads to receive my heart for the sense of guilt is the very gift from me. If you have even one speck of guilt in your heart, you will not be able to receive me. Truly, cast away all things out of your heart and make yourself perfect; be united with me. Let us go all the way to my kingdom.
(Lord, it took too long for me to realize that I was bad and admit it. How can we quickly realize about ourselves from an objective perspective, no, from your perspective?)
The answer is that you reflect yourselves on my words. My words are like a mirror, which shows all of your sins, faults, and blemishes. (But no matter how much of the Word they read, people do not repent or they postpone repentance because they don’t properly realize about themselves. Isn’t it so?)
That is why [ I ] called my Word, the Word of life. People are that way because they do not take the Word like life. Everyone needs to live their life with a mindset that views my Word as a prescription of life, that views themselves as a patient, and that views me, the Holy Son, as a doctor. And they should live with a heart that desires to cure their diseases. If they do not have those views but just think superficially and say, ‘Oh, another message came out,’ they cannot fix themselves. In the end, such people fail to correct themselves because of their sin of not valuing the Word. They leave the prescription of the week behind, get only more tangled by the chain of their sins, and move closer to the shadow of death one step after another. For this reason, depending on how a person values and listens to my Word and how much they make themselves, the way I use them differs. I use people who view my Word like life.
(Lord, I am sorry. There were many chances for me to realize but I failed to realize. So I remained in agony for a long time. Plus, because of that, I could not receive you properly.)
So many people are living wrapped in unnecessary pain and agony. I do not want that for them. Did I permit you only the heaven above heaven? [No,] I permitted you the heaven on earth also. But even though you confess that you love me and you yearn for the heaven above heaven, you fail to live a life of heaven on this earth because of your sins and because of your heart that you have not fixed and emptied yet. Instead, you are unable to avoid the hell of heart. Think; how sad and frustrated my heart would be!
Now, let us clean and tidy up all the diseases, the things to be fixed and the things to be emptied from your heart. And enjoy perfect heaven with me. (In order to receive your heart, I think I should know your personality correctly. For the love you showed me, I thought I knew a lot about your personality. But I guess my knowledge was not enough.)
It is because knowledge alone is not enough. If you know my personality and love, you need to practice living with my personality. Through the drill in which you fall down and get up again, you become closer to my personality and my perfect heart. If you wish to have my, Holy Son’ personality and have perfect personality in your life, please heed to the Word that I, Holy Son, give.
(But Holy Son, if you told me, ‘You, fix this!’ then it would not have taken that long. Why didn’t you do that?)
It is because you have to realize and be able see your own heart. How can a person who cannot see their own heart see other people’s hearts? They should be able to read their own heart well in order for them to be able to lead others’ lives in the same way. When it is your mission to read their hearts and completely lead them to me, how could I simply tell you, ‘Fix this; fix that’? If I did, satan would reproach. It is also your responsibility to realize, to empty your heart, to repent, and to climb up. Yet, I support you throughout that process.
The chain of sin is dreadful. If you have sin, you cannot receive me, nor can you unite with me. Value the Word. Pick up your heart. Compare and measure it against each and every word. Closely examine yourself thinking that you are someone whom you are taking care of. Then you will be able to successfully fix more things faster.